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{Friday, June 15, 2007} Need a Change
I have decided I need a change in my outlook. It seems that lately my life is all about cancer. All I ever think about is cancer. I'm a person who likes to plan. I play out every possible situation in my head to make sure I have a plan for it. What does that do? It drives me crazy. I start to dwell on the negative possibilities. I start mourning for the sadness before it is even close to being a fact. This morning I woke up and had this sudden need to pray. It's not very often that I have such a strong calling to pray the minute I open my eyes. So I sat down in the dark, on my living room couch and bowed my head. I let it all out. I cried, I worshiped, I felt like screaming (but held back because I didn't want to wake anyone yet). Then I was at peace. I felt God this morning. I felt His arms wrap around me. I felt His grace and comfort. At that moment there was a change in my thinking. I am now thanking God for every moment I have with my kids. I'm so happy that I have just one more day to enjoy them. I'm praising Him for keeping Kelsey symptom free during her treatment. He has been so good to us and I was too stubborn to see it. But my eyes have been opened, my heart softened.


Blogger Seeker said...

Am so glad that you are feeling stronger now and more able to see that God is always with you. Both you and K will remain in my prayers.

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